Amy, Amy, Amy.
You just don’t know. This song does something to me.
I could sit here all day and think of every colorful verb and adjective in the book, and it still wouldn’t describe the feeling my soul gets when I hear that opening piano chord sequence. How my heart jumps and drops at the same time when I hear that Horn Section come in. Just listening to it for the first time in months stopped me in my tracks and compelled me to just… start writing about it. So I’ll let the spirit move me.
In my heart, I will always miss the Old Amy Winehouse. The one you see above. The mostly tattoo free, crack-less, Blake-less Amy who was just trying to battle the haunting demons of a childhood without the father she adored (he was off having an affair with another woman, which left an effect she CLEARLY lets you know about… and you could see manifest itself later in her career…), while using the gift of her voice and POWERFUL writing ability to work through it. Unfortunately, life doesn’t go how we plan, relationships are not a fu*king cakewalk, and sometimes along the way you run into things and people you shouldn’t be around… even though your heart tells you to spend as much time have on earth with them. And it looks like she’s had that moment.
Anyways… the theme of this (powerful ass) song lies largely within the theme of trying to let go of that certain someone/something. You know who s/he is. You know you need to let go, but every time you try… you can’t seem to release yourself from whatever hold they have on you. And a part of you doesn’t really want to. Every breath, every kiss, every caress seems to negate the horrible argument you just had, the ugly things you said to each other… or the fact that s/he’s still attached to that ex of his. Basically, you know you need to just put this dude in the friend zone PERMANENTLY, and you REALLY want to, but you CANT.
It happens so much more often than we think. Some call it “The Game Changer.” Others call it “The one who got away” or “leave that motherfucker alone.” I call it “The Untouchable.” That one person, no matter how much you want and KNOW you should be with them… you already know that NO good could ever come of that situation. And even though you know you shouldn’t, you spend every second you can with said person, absorbing every minute, moment and memory into your mind, etching every word spoken into your heart… while somehow keeping in mind that it was already over long before it even began.
So can you tell I relate to this song in a serious way? Ha. Well like I said, there’s nothing I can say that Amy cant tell you in three minutes, letting her unnaturally soulful voice and soul bleed on this track of retro-perfectness. Ska influenced horns and sweet guitar riffs find Amy between begging her lover to stay, while doing everything she can to make him leave. Change a love that was once passionate and intense into a friendship with lines and boundaries. Funny thing is, even though you can hear in every verse that she wants him as a friend, she still needs more from him… in a real way. Theres an ever-present sense of longing for him even though she wants him to go away.
“When will we get the time to be just friends?
It’s never safe for us not even in the evening
‘cos I’ve been drinking
Not in the morning where your shit works
It’s always dangerous when everybody’s sleeping
And I’ve been thinking
Can we be alone?
Can we be alone?
When will we get the time to be just friends?
And no I’m not ashamed but the guilt will kill you
If she don’t first
I’ll never love you like her
Though we need to find the time
To just do this shit together
For it gets worse
I wanna touch you
But that just hurts
When will we get the time to be just just friends
I feel you, Amy.
Anyways, I’m going to shut the entire fuck up now.